There is one thing that can for sure be said about the spiritual realm: One never knows what may happen in situations like this! I know in my heart that my wife was saying good- bye to me when I felt that breeze pass through.”
“Totally Committed: Till Death Do Us Part” by Timothy Lawrence is a deeply personal and emotionally honest memoir that chronicles the author’s unwavering devotion to his wife, Gail, as she battles the progressive and devastating effects of Multiple Sclerosis. Proudly published by Citi of Books, this is now available on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and other major retail platforms.
Tim Lawrence watched his wife, Gail, endure a 16-year battle with multiple sclerosis while he worked full-time as a city bus driver and devoted the rest of his life to caring for her. As the disease progressed, he witnessed the gradual loss of the woman he loved—grieving her in stages while continuing to show up each day as a husband, father, provider, and part-time caregiver.
In sharing his story, Tim offers an honest and compassionate account of how he managed the emotional, physical, and practical demands of caregiving. He speaks openly about the lessons learned along the way, including the unexpected challenges he and his family should have prepared for, and the difficult decisions no one warns you about in advance.
More than a story of illness, the book is a testament to love, faith, endurance, and the often-unseen sacrifices required by caregivers. Lawrence invites readers into the private realities of marriage tested by chronic disease, revealing how vows spoken in hope are lived out through years of physical exhaustion, emotional strain,
and spiritual surrender. Written with humility and candor, the book serves both as a memoir and as a guide for anyone who may one day find themselves caring for disabled loved one.
The story begins with what appears to be a hopeful new chapter in Timothy Lawrence’s life: a loving marriage, a blended family, and the anticipation of a new child. However, this promising beginning is abruptly disrupted when his wife Gail begins showing alarming physical symptoms during pregnancy. After extensive medical consultations, she is diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis—a disease the couple knows little about at the time.
As the illness progresses, Gail slowly loses control over her body, moving from a cane to a walker, and eventually to a wheelchair. Timothy becomes not only a husband but also a full-time caregiver, balancing long work hours with the relentless demands of physical care, medical routines, and parenting. Each chapter documents the emotional and physical toll of caregiving, emphasizing how unpredictability becomes one of the cruelest aspects of the disease.
“Totally Committed: Till Death Do Us Part” is compelling because it tells the truth about caregiving without romanticizing it. Timothy Lawrence does not shy away from discomfort, exhaustion, or doubt, making the story deeply relatable and emotionally powerful. Readers are drawn into a narrative that is both heartbreaking and inspiring, one that challenges conventional ideas about marriage, strength, and devotion.
The book’s honesty allows readers to reflect on their own relationships and responsibilities, while its spiritual grounding offers hope amid despair. Whether read as a memoir, a faith-based reflection, or a caregiving guide, the book leaves a lasting impression by showing that true commitment is not proven in easy moments, but in the willingness to stay when leaving would be easier.
“Totally Committed: Till Death Do Us Part” by Timothy Lawrence is now available for purchase below: